I am posting videos on youtube and it is a learning curve for sure. I say amateur hour but the video’s are less than 14 minutes long because I can not seem to be able to post longer one’s. I think it has something to do with lack of subscribers and it is a numbers game for sure. But hey my north node is in Leo and I have been advised by the stars to take up acting… unfortunately I suck at acting so what you are witnessing on my youtube videos is the real deal. Lifeitsaflippinthing is the link if you would be so kind as to stop by and say hi.
Jumble-Cart Self Defined: A jumble of things in a cart. In this case several topics thrown into a blog post 🙂
Sometimes weird little words or phrases pop into my head and I think, “where did that come from” or “what does that mean?”.
Does that happen to you? Those mysterious words and phrases slide into your mind and you have no idea where you heard or read them. And you wonder how did I come to even know them? It happens to me frequently and that is how I came up with the title for today’s post. It popped into my mind, probably because I have several topics I wanted to write about so I googled jumble-cart to see if it was of my own making or picked up from this amazing mysterious quantum existence we are living. I didn’t find much except once used in an old manuscript. Well as you can see from the above definition I gave it, I sometimes just go with it and choose my own language as well.
I received delivery of fresh hot off the press new copies of Mattie’s Legacy my self published, fiction novel. You can find reviews if google the name. If you would like to purchase a signed copy please visit the General Store and order and I will send it to you in a padded envelope by media mail USPS with free shipping 🙂 Thank you in advance 🙂
A lot of noise is going on in our world and working in health care I feel like it is amplified which is causing heightened emotions for patients, families and staff. The lyrics “What the world needs now is love, love sweet love,” flows through my mind and I try daily to express that while I work.
I thought I would share my thoughts, a poem and some resources I feel have helped me through this evolutionary change we are all experiencing this one and only time with the hope that we can begin to live out those lyrics globally and personally.
Change has been needed on a global level for far too long and in a perfect world we would have accomplished this as a whole of humanity long before now. But perfect we are not and it has not happened, so time is up, we were given the opportunity many times through history to make and correct ourselves and not just on the surface but at the heart and spirit level. Our evolutionary evolving should have reached that level of love and acceptance before now. We should by now be able “to love our neighbor as ourselves” without having to be violently woke up. But again as we all know that it has not. I believe we have reached a tipping point that pushed our collective society into righteous indignation and to demand those changes NOW. And as a global outcry refuses to be silenced or lulled back into passivity as so often happens.
With all of this going on coupled with Covid-19 at the forefront of our everyday of our lives for everyone has taken the meaning of Viral to a new level literally. And for me on a personal level I was feeling the emotional drain and exhaustion mentally, physically, and spiritually. I have felt my energy turning from positive to defeated and depressed. And that is not in my nature. I felt a growing deep need for healing and for quiet, so I could regain the positive and peace I needed to heal my mind, heart and energy. It was not a check-out I needed but a check-in with myself. Checking in with how I feel, what has been my contribution, digging deep and finding areas within my own ideologies that needed changed. Hard stuff, but we can not get to where we need to be without taking individual responsibility. Our focus is so often outward on what others are doing or not doing that we forget to turn those questions on ourselves as individuals and evaluate our own hearts and minds. If you don’t think you have preconceived beliefs and judgements, think again because we all do and it should be our work as individuals to clean ourselves up internally everyday. Even if all you can do is take five minutes to evaluate yourself at the end of each day by reflecting on your encounters with others and mental responses, even that little will go a long way to healing us as individuals and as a mass society. I will leave that for now and hope that it will resonate with anyone who reads this.
What I am Reading Now: The Source of Self-Regard by Toni Morrison…You can find a copy on Amazon. I have just started this book and already it has touched nerves within myself and shed light on the dark corners of my heart and mind.
What I am Watching and Listening to: On Youtube watch this it will elevate your spirit, mind and heart: <a rel="noreferrer noopener" href="http://<iframe width="560" height="315" src="https://www.youtube.com/embed/rQehXoCipts" frameborder="0" allow="accelerometer; autoplay; encrypted-media; gyroscope; picture-in-picture" allowfullscreen>The Animal Communicator and Her Incredible Ability. https://youtu.be/rQehXoCipts. Watching Anna communicate with animals was the most fascinating and hopeful experience I have had in a very long time. What if we practiced this form of communication with each other and the animal world- what a wonderful world it would be. I watched this yesterday and than this happened today as I was reading Bob Goffs “Live in Grace Walk in Love” I was awed by today’s passage because it amplified what I had just watched yesterday and I just have to share it, because the synchronicity is just amazing: On Page 203, Job 12:7-9 “But ask the animals, and they will teach you, or the birds in the sky, and they will tell you; or speak to the earth, and it will teach you, or let the fish in the sea inform you. Which of all these does not know that the hand of the Lord has done this?
Okay if that does not blow your mind than I don’t know what would 🙂 I am still smiling and trying to talk to my golden retriever Stella and my cat Cayenne 🙂
Also watching on Youtube “A Chick Named Albert” check that one out to if you need your feel good vibes magnified. 🙂 as well
I will close with a not perfect free form poem and so much love and thoughts of peace your way …
A Dry and Desert Place
Do you hear the wind?
Wind of change rushing in laying waste to this dry desert place
body’s scramble to gain more to create the illusion of self-aggrandizment
posting pasting plastering trying to out run the truth
we are small simpletons self imposed scratching at our flesh
silently screaming watch me! watch me!
like a child begging an uninterested parent
we ignore the knocking that has been knocking for generations
we no longer hear the spirit at our door
and the important work we came here for
the mighty wind shatters the mirrors of our illusion
created from the sands of time appear as
beautiful prism’s of our lives
now Broken plain alone scattered dust to dust
it must return to where it came from that
cold dry desert sand slipping through bleeding hands
hot red soft sweet guilt drips at the feet of our ancestors
where it began, where it was left, where we continue to return
undone unfinished in a dry thirsty land
bleached bones shimmer
blood cries out again and again and again
down through time and ages and generations
It screams no more no more not again
in this dry desert place spinning
silent to the human ear but loud and clear
screaming back building
the wind’s came tearing through
our judgement and lies
carrying destruction and demolition in it’s wake
where is the rain
let it rain let it rain
cry out we must for the healing rain
cleanse this dry desert place
wash us clean of injustice and hate
let the rain heal the pain
so can welcome the spring
so we can begin again to
reveal green sprouts and buds
the hope of a new day
for a new generation
to grow a stronger welcoming world for all to live in.
Fear for breakfast
Uncertainty with dinner
Sheltered in Place
humans be still
clouds float by
blue ocean sky
Finger of God
o be grateful
we’re all mad
six feet apart
curiouser and curiouser
what does it mean?
Don’t ask me
how long will it last?
until it ends-
What can we do?
BE and DO
the best You.
I am thankful –
thankful I survived
the torture and the lies
When I look into their eyes
I am thankful-
the scars across my soul
mark all the times I let go-
to grab a hold of
the balm of Gilead soothes my mind
in the night
I am thankful
looking from here to there
shivers crawl across my skin
memories close in
pull me under
no longer can they hold me down
long enough to watch me drown
I am thankful
day and night
for holy intervention on a drug filled night
screams no one can hear
lungs on fire
Here I am
All these years later
in the valley of the shadow of death
and I am thankful.
After two years of trying to get my personal iolareneau.com domain back — I finally was able to today. And I hope I will now be able to create the site I have been wanting to have where all the eclectic pieces come together so I can share my randomness with the world. (lol)
This will be a place where you can read what I write, check out my book reviews, enjoy random wanderings, and buy cool stuff I find along the way.
In the meantime while I work on the general store.. You can visit my eBay store at itsaflippinthing and poshmark at itsaflipinthing (only one p) .. Life is a flippin’ thing … and you have to be able to flip the switch on expectations, lifestyle, emotions otherwise you will get drowned in the drama.
The artist is the creator of beautiful things. To reveal art and conceal the artist is art’s aim. The critic is he who can translate into another manner or a new material his impression of beautiful things.
I had to start a new blog because my original blog expired and I was working so much I really did not have the time or energy to keep it up.
I am writing again now that I have started a new job and hope to finish projects that have been set aside for far too long.
Thank you to everyone who has read Mattie’s Legacy and for all your wonderful reviews.